my stomach has been feeling a bit dodgy as well

so PF e-mailed me a novel on tuesday morning extending an "olive branch of sorts." it has the same tone she used in her original e-mail to me in december...as if she was lecturing a child.


homey don't play that.



she basically wants me to state whether or not i want to remain friends. as one (or two?) friend said, should friendship be this hard?

on the one hand we have been friends for something ridiculous like 11 years and i should make an effort to remain friendly with her.

on the other hand, even doormat me can only take so much patronizing crap from people before i pull away.


so i'm sending her an e-mail at the end of the day (i really can't wait that much longer) stating my indecision.

this will not make her happy.
but as i'm (slowly) learning, i need to start worrying about my own happiness.

let's try something new

so my new theory to get over my crush is to CONSTANTLY tell myself that i'm over him.

yeah....it's going as well as expected.

valium is my new friend

sigh.
so i became a grown up today.


i called the dentist.


good news: i probably don't have cavities


bad news: my chipped teeth are the least of my problems


good news: i got a prescription for valium


bad news: it will cost me over $400 to get my gums fixed

sitemeter whore

seriously.

i totally ::heart:: sitemeter.

i check it frequently throughout the day. not because i get a zillion hits, but because i'm nosy and what to know who's been on my site and what they did while they were there.

because of my nosiness, i know that PF still checks my other blog EVERY work day. the day she told me that she was having a boy, she checked my blog FOUR times. i know what she was looking for, she wanted to know if i was going to post about it.

probably so she can send me another angry letter about her privacy.

is it wrong to be so childish?
probably.

do i care?
not really.